I take medication.
I said it; I wrote it.
I take medication to restore balance in my brain.
Just like I take a daily probiotic to balance my gut.
Let me explain; not because I feel I have to, but because I want to.
At the end of 2020 Brian and I were both working from home while our two young children were in school.
Our day-to-day was going quite smoothly. Enjoyable, even.
Brian and I took turns dropping our children off at school, we had lunch together, went for walks together; it was lovely reconnecting and spending time, just the two of us.
Then another lockdown happened where we live, and we were all home once again. No visiting with family or friends. No outside help with balancing work and supporting our children with their online learning (Junior Kindergarten and Grade 1).
I felt like I wasn’t a good mom, wasn’t a good partner to Brian, and wasn’t a good enough teacher for my students. I was feeling incredibly down and/or numb and I didn’t know how to get out of it. I didn’t have the tools.
In early 2021, there wasn’t the same messaging about mental health as there is now. I wasn’t part of the “Own Your Stigma” community yet, and society as a whole was just starting to talk about mental health.
Thankfully, that has changed.
Now we’re encouraged to take care of our mental health, to have a work-life balance, to make time for self-care.
In early 2021 I began doing things I’ve already shared (going to therapy, exercising more regularly, eating more thoughtfully). I also started taking medication for my anxiety and, at that time, depression.
Why it took me almost a year to share that I take medication, I’m not sure.
So that’s it. That’s my update.
I continue to take medication.
I’m getting back into exercising regularly and eating thoughtfully. I continue to be part of this amazing mental health community that is “Own Your Stigma.” I surround myself with people who understand that mental health IS health, and that it’s okay to not be okay.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for taking care of your mental health.
Thank you for understanding that we never truly know anyone’s full story.